I imagined many scenarios and various responses, but I was still caught off guard - I didn't expect her to speak like that. The current Su-su looks normal, but this excessive normalcy is what worries me. We know each other, but we're not close. There's polite courtesy and distance, a sense of unfamiliarity and avoidance.
She didn't call me by my formal name or "Great monk," she referred to me as "master"... I can't help but frown when I hear her call me " Su-su," even though there have been no other actions. There was a time when a girl clearly told me that names and titles are all meaningless. I guess she probably hasn't even realized how much she dislikes me now.
I really want to leave before she notices, but I can't. The whole Dingji Temple owes Su-su, and no one else is left. I even owe her my life... Su-su is right, I have to repay her.
"Okay, Fl... I understand. Take care, if..." I didn't finish my sentence. In fact, Su-su left after hearing just the first word. I won't leave. I know she's having a hard time adjusting to mortal life, and I should protect her. It's my fault for not considering that she's even more uncomfortable than I am. Su-su only knows Fan Le but is forced to meet Harmonious. I can't call her Su-su anymore, I can only call her "Miss."
Since she is unwilling to become a nun, I will accompany her. Only when I help Su-su adapt to the life of an ordinary person will she be able to let go of everything. Perhaps I shouldn't have become a monk just to repay a debt. Do I really not see through the world of mortals in my heart? Su-su is very lovely. There are many visitors to Dingji Temple, both male and female devotees, but I have never seen such a content "layperson" before her.
The old lady who eats vegetarian food and chants Buddha's name looks kind and has a Buddha-like appearance, but she is no less concerned than other good male and female believers. Every time, she prays for many descendants and blessings for her family business, and she never forgets a single one.
Su-su The girl is different - "Glory and wealth flow like water, and prosperity is all in turmoil." I think she has a wise heart that can understand the Buddha nature. It's not easy for her to have her own insights on Mencius' words "Wealth cannot be licentious, poverty cannot be moved, and might cannot be bent."
I think I deceived her once, and I need to deceive her again.
" Su-su girl, I have nowhere to go. Can I follow you up the mountain and be a steward?"..."My family doesn't need men... Are you willing to change your gender?" Cough, shocking the world and shocking the vulgar, she actually asked me if I wanted to become a woman. She hated men and monks even more. She told me that if I wanted to go up the mountain, I had to become a woman. Amitabha, Amitabha, Amitabha, I chanted Amitabha for I don't know how many times...
"Okay, if Su-su girl is willing, I'm willing." I thought it wouldn't be bad to become a woman and be with her. It's just a matter of getting used to it. I should have been a cow or a horse. "Good, I appreciate your attitude. Then please come find me again in three days. I will be refining elixirs these days, and Kaiyuan Tongbao will be my gift to you, my future sister." She seemed pleased, and her tone sounded very cheerful. She waved to me before leaving, bouncing away. It was truly wonderful.
"I am quite proficient in the four arts of qin, chess, calligraphy, and painting." I regret saying this, as the Su-su girl specially invited a lady to teach me embroidery, since she herself does not like it. As for cooking, because Su-su thinks that the hand holding a rolling pin is not as elegant as holding a pen, she does not allow me to learn. She is currently planning to sign what she calls an "unequal treaty" with me. In fact, I am willing to sign, but she says I have not yet proven my loyalty through a test, so I am not qualified to sign."
"I'm really sorry, Su-su, Su-su, I'm sorry, it's my fault..."
" Su-su, Su-su, please, please, Su-su!"
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