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Ghost also want to have some love
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I am a ghost, seemingly different from other ghosts. They become ghosts only after they die, but I have lived in The Underworld since I became conscious. I often wander around Naihe Bridge, watching the ghosts walk over from the other side. Some of them drink the soup from Meng Po eagerly, while others remain silent for a long time before drinking it at Meng Po's urging. I can't understand why it's so difficult for some people to drink Meng Po's soup.
So, when Meng Po was resting, I asked her, "What effect does your soup have on them?"
"Drinking the soup makes them forget all their past lives," Meng Po said expressionlessly.
"Why do they need to forget?" I asked in confusion.
"They are different from you. They are going to be reincarnated, to become human again, so naturally they cannot retain memories of their past lives."
"Why reincarnation?"
"When you die, you need reincarnation."
"What does it mean to die?"
Meng Po remained silent for a long time, as if this was a difficult thing to explain. Finally, she concluded, "When you die, it means the end of the physical life, the soul has nowhere to go, so it comes to The Underworld."
I also fell silent, finding it a bit difficult to understand. I decided to go play instead. After thanking Meng Po, I returned to the Naihe Bridge.
At first glance, a woman in blue was standing quietly in the ghostly flow. It was really strange. I slowly moved closer to her, but she seemed unaware, so I greeted her, but she still didn't react. This was really too strange! I found something interesting!
I asked her, "Why don't you move forward? Everyone is moving forward." She slowly turned her head, tears streaming down her face. She said, "I am waiting for my husband. I want to know if he has abandoned me." "Then why are you still waiting? If he may have abandoned you, then you should abandon him first." I didn't understand. "I need a resolution, whether he is alive or dead, I need a resolution for our marriage, for the love I have given."
I suddenly felt a shock in my heart. If her husband has already abandoned her, does the love she has given still have any meaning? Even if she is already dead, should she wait on the Naihe Bridge for ten, twenty, or even hundreds of years just to give an account of her love? But what if she never gets the result she's waiting for?
Later, I came to the Naihe Bridge every day to watch this woman. She still stood there quietly. I told Meng Po that she probably wouldn't get what she wanted. Meng Po said she would, that heaven would give her the result she wanted.
I find it ridiculous. If heaven is truly moved by her persistence and grants her the desired outcome, then why not give it to her while she's still alive? Letting her experience this suffering, ultimately exhausting love and hope while waiting.
Meng Po asked me to go to the mortal world and experience all this firsthand, then I would understand.
I thought for a long time, then randomly grabbed a little ghost and asked him if the mortal world is fun. He said, "Everyone's view of the world is different because of their different upbringing and emotional experiences. People full of love deeply love this world, while those not loved hate this world. Some people seek life, trying every means to prolong their lives, while others seek death, trying everything from drowning to taking poison."
This must be a philosopher. I don't understand, so I have made up my mind to go and take a look at this world.
I found the King of Hell, and it was only after I talked his ear off that he allowed me to go to the human world for a visit. He asked me, "Do you want to smoothly experience a love affair in the human world, or do you want to go through the suffering of love?" He stumped me again. For a ghost like me, without love, without emotion, without desire, and without demand, it seems that neither success nor suffering would have much impact on me. But if I were to become a human, with the seven emotions and six desires, then I would certainly not be able to endure suffering. But how can I taste the bitterness of love if everything goes smoothly? How can I understand the results that people await for the love they give?
So I crossed the reincarnation door and entered the human world. It turns out that people in the human world have expressions: men drinking in the tavern laugh heartily, struggling vendors wear a worried expression, and people arguing have fierce faces. It's not like The Underworld where everyone has an expressionless deadpan look.
I wandered around the streets for a long time, and a vendor stopped me and said, "Miss, I see you've been wandering for a while. Do you want to eat something to fill your stomach?" I asked him, "Where is the liveliest place around here?" He pointed to the tallest building in the distance. "That's the busiest restaurant in our city, always packed with people every day!" I thanked him, bought a roasted sweet potato from him, and headed towards the restaurant. It looked quite close, but in reality, I had to walk through six more streets to get there. This city is really big!
I walked slowly, taking a bite of the roasted sweet potato from time to time. The sweet potato was roasted to a golden color by the vendor, and it was sticky and sweet. It was indeed a fitting first food to eat in the mortal world! Finally, as it was getting dark, I arrived at the restaurant. Wow! This restaurant is really luxurious! It's almost dark now, and all the lights in the restaurant are on, it's truly beautiful.
"Sir, how many in your party?" A young waiter approached to greet me, leading me upstairs as he spoke. "Sir, the first floor of our restaurant is fully occupied, only the small private rooms on the second floor and the VIP rooms on the third floor are available. Where would you like to go?" "I'll go to the second floor, I'm alone."
Upon reaching the second floor, I casually pointed to a spacious private room with a good view, ordered the restaurant's specialty dishes, and sat down to enjoy some tea.
I quietly watched the bustling lobby and thought of the woman in blue on the Naihe Bridge. Is the person she's waiting for here? Have they forgotten about her and taken a new lover?
"I remember this city. Isn't the liveliest place the one her husband often frequented?"
Suddenly, a servant walked in. "Your ordered dishes have arrived. Here is our most famous dish. Enjoy, miss. Let me know if you need anything." After speaking, he closed the door and left.
It's useless to think so much, let's eat first. I shamelessly finish all the dishes in front of me. It's no wonder this restaurant is the most popular, the taste is really amazing. It's great to be a human, unlike being a ghost, following the King of Hell and going hungry for three days and nine meals.
Suddenly, there was a lot of noise outside the door, and a man who looked like he had drunk a lot came in, leading a beautiful and slightly shy woman.
The man came in and shouted, "Today is my big day! Miss Ziyun has finally agreed to marry me! Come, Miss, I toast to you, let's share this joy together!" I wasn't interested in this kind of thing, but his surname is Chen, isn't the husband of that woman in blue also surnamed Chen? I picked up the teacup and said, "Congratulations, sir, on winning the beauty. May I ask for your name? I will send a congratulatory gift to your house tomorrow." The servant next to me introduced, "This is the son of the Minister of Justice, Chen Mingxi."
I understand it now. This is the husband of the woman in the blue dress. Does he know that his wife has passed away?
After exchanging pleasantries with this man who abandoned his wife, I sent him away.
I kept the servant behind and carefully questioned him about this man's experiences.
Chen Mingxi and the daughter of the Imperial Censor, Zhao Mangyuan, were childhood sweethearts, known to everyone in the capital. Even the current emperor had arranged their marriage, making it a highly anticipated and beautiful union. After Zhao Mangyuan came of age, the two quickly married and enjoyed a happy and blissful life, often seen together and envied by others. Several years later, Zhao Mangyuan became pregnant, and the Chen family spared no expense in providing her with the best care and even hired a renowned chef to cook her favorite meals. When Zhao Mangyuan was eight months pregnant, the Minister even requested the imperial physician to help with her pregnancy. Unfortunately, Zhao Mangyuan went into premature labor and, due to her frail health, lost the baby and was unable to conceive again.
After this incident, Chen Mingxi was seen at the largest brothel in Willow Lane, which Zhao Mangyuan found out about and caused a scene. This led to their estrangement, and eventually, Zhao Mangyuan moved out of the Chen residence and bought her own property, cutting off contact with Chen Mingxi. Many assumed they had divorced, but when asked, Chen Mingxi declared that he had divorced her, stating, "A worthless woman who can't bear children! How could we divorce? I divorced her!" This statement caused a stir in the capital, as it was widely known that he had married into the prestigious Chen family and was now making such arrogant remarks.
I can imagine what happened next, even with my eyes closed. It's just that Chen Mingxi fell in love with a prostitute, and now the two of them are about to get married. But I still want to know if Chen Mingxi knows that Zhao Mangyuan is already dead?
So on the day of Chen Mingxi's wedding, I went to the Chen residence. It was indeed magnificent, clearly the residence of a high-ranking official. After presenting my congratulations, I walked into the courtyard and happened to run into Chen Mingxi chatting with his colleagues. I invited him to have a private conversation.
When I asked about Zhao Mangyuan, his face turned cold, "Don't mention that wench to me on my happy day!"
"Why does Master Chen call her a wench?"
"She cannot bear children for the Chen family, continue the family line, and pass on the family name. What else can she be if not a wench?"
"Do you know that Zhao Mangyuan has already passed away and has been waiting for you at the Naihe Bridge? But it seems she won't be able to wait for you any longer. She asked me to inquire, what is the meaning of the love and affection over these years? If you no longer love her, then I will tell her not to wait any longer and to reincarnate early. Also, if you value carrying on the family line so much and have already remarried, why bother cursing at a dead person!"
Chen Mingxi's face, which had turned slightly red due to the atmosphere, paled a bit upon hearing these words. It seemed that he didn't know that Zhao Mangyuan had already passed away. I didn't bother with his emotions and just quietly waited for his response.
Finally, he walked out the door and hurriedly ordered the carriage to go to the yard where Zhao Mangyuan was.
I was sitting in the garden, drinking tea with nothing to do. At this time, a white-clothed man walked over and sat down next to me leisurely, pouring tea for himself. Then he slowly spoke, "Is it not good for you to do this?"
What's wrong? Who's not good?
"Are you telling others about his death just to vent your anger for Zhao Mangyuan?"
What anger? Who's angry?
I think this person is really strange, stay away from him.
Not long after, Chen Mingxi came back and grabbed my sleeve, "Vuan Vuan, can you tell me something?"
This sentence reminds me of the last time I saw Zhao Mangyuan before she left.
She just smiled softly and said in a gentle voice,
"If he doesn't want to answer, it's okay; if he hates me, it's okay; if he still has feelings for me, then come and tell me, I will wait for him."
I revealed her original words in full, and Chen Mingxi was stunned for a moment, about to cancel the wedding. I stopped him. "You have already hurt one woman's heart, and now you want to ruin another woman's happiness? Are you afraid that you haven't committed enough sins? I advise you to be good to the woman you are with now. At least you can still bring happiness to a woman. As for mang yuan, she is already dead. No matter how much you repent, she won't come back. It's more practical to burn some paper money for her."
Chen Mingxi Suddenly collapsed on the ground, crying in pain.
I also sat on the ground.
"Today is your big day, you should be happy. It's getting late, go and pick up the bride."
"Mang Yuan can also reincarnate without regrets."
After attending Chen Mingxi's wedding, I pondered how to write a letter to Meng Po to help convey a message. This is really hard for someone who is deeply in love to accept.
"Miss!"
I turned around and saw the White-clothed man.
"Miss Zhao has always lived a secluded life. How did you find out about her passing?"
Is this person sick? Can't he just mind his own business?
"What's it to you."
White-clothed man was stunned by my words and stood still.
Ignore him, he's just being sensitive.
I briefly told the story of Chen Mingxi and wrote a letter to Meng Po. It doesn't matter how I sent it; we ghosts have our own network.
The matter of Zhao Mangyuan has been resolved, and I have been living a peaceful life for nearly half a month. Every day, I eat a roasted sweet potato, then leisurely stroll to the restaurant to eat, and casually ask the waiter for the latest gossip. Finally, one day, I suddenly remembered the purpose of my coming to this world, so I grabbed the waiter and asked, "Where is the easiest place to experience love?"
The servant furrowed his brow in deep thought and said, "I don't know about love, but for romance, you can go to Willow Lane." Then he covered his face and ran away.
So I went to the largest brothel on Willow Lane, the one where Chen Mingxi had an affair.
"Please find your boss for me."
Then, amidst a jumble of incomprehensible gibberish, I became the courtesan of this brothel, but luckily I am quite clever and sell my skills. It seems I have to give the boss a few hundred taels... of gold? But that's not important.
The most important thing now is for me to have a name. I went to the madam to give me a name, but she couldn't come up with one that suited me. Then, with a turn of her eyes, she thought of a good way to make money. So after I received fifteen days of etiquette training, flirtatious eye training, waist twisting training, smiling training, and a series of other training that didn't seem like just selling skills, I finally made my courtesan debut!! On that day, I wore a light veil covering my entire upper body, holding a pipa, gracefully walking onto the stage. I slowly placed my hand on the strings, and then, began to pretend to play. I don't know how to play the pipa at all!! Deceptive merchant! Give me back my hard-earned money!
The light veil is also to prevent the audience below from seeing my hand movements. Mama-san, you are considerate, give me back my hard-earned money!
After playing a tune that I couldn't name, the audience's enthusiasm reached its peak. Mama-san saw that all the rich second-generation and second-generation officials had arrived, so she announced the first part of the oiran's appearance.
【Naming】
"Our new oiran doesn't have a name yet, so that everyone present can feel involved. Just think, in the future when people mention our oiran, and it's a name you came up with, how prestigious that would be! Our oiran will always think of the person who named her when she hears her name, isn't that like being the first to enjoy the moon by the water's edge?"
"Alright, enough talk. We will choose the name through a bidding process, starting at ten taels, with increments of at least five taels. Everyone clear? Then, let the bidding for the oiran's name begin!"
"Fifty taels! Peony"
"Seventy-two taels! Yuan Yuan."
"Three hundred taels, Cuihua."
Everyone on the scene gasped in shock. Three hundred taels! And it's also called Cuihua! Everyone looked at the bidder in amazement. Wow!
White Coat Neurologist Isn't this it?
White-clothed man walked out of the crowd, and everyone was momentarily shocked by three hundred taels and Cuihua, and forgot to bid.
"So the final oiran's name is Master Luo's Cuihua! Congratulations Master Luo! Congratulations Cuihua!"
"Next, it's time for the second part of the courtesan's appearance!"
【Unveiling】
A maid came and slowly lifted my veil with a stick. Suddenly, my face felt a bit warm. It was the first time I had shown my face in this way in front of everyone, and I suddenly felt a bit shy.
The maid slowly lifted her veil, and everyone present fell silent.
What's wrong? Am I so ugly that everyone is shocked?
"Miss Cuihua is truly stunning! I have never seen such a beautiful and charming woman!! Bright eyes, white teeth, captivating beauty..."
Is it a bit exaggerated?
"This kind of Peerless makes me willing to spend a fortune and spend a good night with her." The audience below was discussing, and even started to argue about the price of my first night. Looking at the faces of these men, I suddenly lost interest. What kind of love experience can these men bring to me?
So I got up and left directly, heading to the topmost, most expensive VIP box, waiting for the first man to come and tell his love story. By the time I had finished my second pot of tea, the door finally opened, and in walked a man bedecked in gold and silver, but with a large, unattractive head and ears. I couldn't help feeling a little disappointed, not because of the man's appearance, but because he wasn't the one I was curious about.
" Cuihua, I know you only sell your art and only want to hear love stories, but I truly like you. The moment I saw you, I was stunned. If you are willing to be with me, I will give you the best mansion in the capital! I will present you with the most expensive jewels, guaranteeing you the most luxurious life in the entire city."
I just glanced lightly and said, "Have you been married? Are you willing to divorce your wife for me? Are you willing to marry me in a proper ceremony?" The man's smile froze, "My wife at home is very strict. Besides the status, I can give you anything." The maid came in and took the person away. I boredly leaned against the window and looked down, only to see the White-clothed man and other prostitutes laughing and joking. Didn't he just spend three hundred taels on me? Why isn't he coming to find me?
I called the maid in and inquired about the situation of the white-clothed man. The white-clothed man is named Luo Chuqing, sounding like a scholarly gentleman, but in reality, his family has been in the military for generations, and he is also a significant general. He often goes to battle, and every war he leads ends in triumph without exception. However, he is very low-key and never looks down on others because of his military achievements. Everyone who has had contact with him says he is courteous and treats people with sincerity and friendliness.
I asked the question that I care about the most.
"Has he ever been married?"
"Never, such a good young man, I wonder who is worthy of him."
I lowered my head, heavy with worries, but I don't know exactly what I was thinking.
Day 2: He didn't come.
Day 3: He didn't come.
Day 4: He came, but didn't come to see me.
Day 5: He didn't come.
Day 6: He didn't come.
Day 30: He came!
"I suppress the joy and curiosity in my heart.
"Do you have any love stories?"
"I, it seems like I have fallen for a girl. From the first time I saw her, I was curious about what kind of girl she is, but she always ignores me. I am a little distressed, not knowing how to get closer to this girl, just chatting with her casually would be nice."
I looked at him, and he was different from anyone else I had ever met, as if there was a halo surrounding him. This man in front of me, even the women in the brothel couldn't stop praising him. What kind of woman does he actually like?
Luo Chuqing saw that I didn't respond to him, but he wasn't angry, just quietly waiting for me to speak.
"Master Luo, you can try inviting the girl you like to the restaurant for a private gathering. I know of a restaurant, which is said to be the most prosperous one here, and the food there is also very good. If you get close to that girl, don't forget to repay me."
He finished the tea in his cup, thanked me, and then left.
The slight anticipation and nervousness in my heart suddenly vanished with his departure.
The next day, a maid gave me an invitation card.
It says: "The restaurant you like, at noon, invites you to a small gathering."
Just a short line, I read it over and over. The joy in my heart couldn't be contained. After changing a thousand outfits, I finally felt somewhat satisfied and left the house.
When I arrived at the restaurant, it was not yet noon. I sat in the usual private room and chatted with the waiter.
It's strange that the usually reticent servant is talking a lot today.
"I see that the young lady is dressed differently today, even more beautiful than usual."
"The young lady's blushing face, is it because she's meeting someone she likes? It would be great to hear the good news and share the joy one day."
Blushing with every word, eagerly awaiting noon to arrive.
At noon, Luo Chuqing arrived on time.
"I had expected the young lady to be a little late, but it turns out I am the one who is late. I apologize sincerely."
I quickly explained that I had come early because I had nothing else to do. We had a great time at the meal, chatting about his experiences on the battlefield and learning about each other's families. However, he didn't mention a word about the things he said to me last night. Could it be that he didn't ask me out to confess his feelings to me?
However, it's true that we've only met four times so far. It's too early to talk about these things. I was just too eager.
But I haven't seen him in the next three months. The other men who come to see me only talk about money, houses, jewelry, and those vulgar things. I really want to know about the battlefield!
One day, while the maid was dressing me, she casually mentioned that Master Luo had led troops into battle and had not yet returned. My heart was suddenly filled with worry. Had he gone to war in March? Was he safe?
Every day, because I worry about his safety, I can't eat my meals and I can't sleep well. Every day, I dream of him dying in battle.
Sigh, no matter what, I can't go on not eating. I went to a restaurant and ordered a large table of dishes, finally managing to eat a little.
The servant beside me anxiously said, "Miss, this is already the fifth bowl, please don't eat anymore. Overeating will make you uncomfortable."
"How come General Ben has been gone for several months and Miss Cuihua has become such a big eater?"
I turned around suddenly and saw Luo Chuqing in military uniform standing at the door, smiling and looking at me.
When he said that, I was a little annoyed. "What does it have to do with General Luo how much I eat? General Luo didn't even say goodbye to me before leaving." I don't know how much coquettishness is contained in this sentence, but outsiders can hear it clearly.
The servant laughed and said, "General Luo left without saying goodbye. Miss Cuihua, you might have to apologize." Then he left.
Luo Chuqing just leaned against the door and smiled, without saying anything.
I said angrily, "Have you eaten? If not, sit down and have something to eat."
"After a few months of separation, the girl is now showing concern for others. It seems that it's worth it for Mr. Luo to rush back to see the girl."
This sentence made me blush again.
After Luo Chuqing returned, it was like living in a brothel. We spent every day together. He often taught me calligraphy, poetry, and painting, and gradually I began to resemble a refined young lady.
"Next month will be the Mid-Autumn Festival, and there will be the Lantern Festival and fireworks. Cuihua, would you like to go with me?"
I suddenly had a premonition, hesitated and agreed, then regretted it. If he confesses to me, and I easily agree, will I disappoint him?
The maid on the side said, "I heard that many noble ladies have invited Master Luo to the Mid-Autumn Lantern Festival, but Master Luo has refused all of them. Now he is inviting the young lady, which shows that she holds a special place in his heart."
Is that true?
In the blink of an eye, it's the Mid-Autumn Festival. I dressed up but didn't dare to show my intentions, just dressed a little nicer. Luo Chuqing came to pick me up in the evening, and we went to have dinner together, then went to the Lantern Festival.
Lantern Festival There are so many little things I haven't seen before, it's overwhelming. After just a short stroll, both Luo Chuqing and I have our hands full of things. As we passed by the mask stall, I wanted to buy two to wear, but he said we still have to go and hang lanterns, so we couldn't carry any more.
It is said that hanging lanterns can make wishes come true and bring blessings. In the past, I didn't have any wishes to make, but now, I have someone I care about.
"I hope Luo Chuqing can be safe and healthy, and always be successful."
I made a wish and placed the lantern into the lake.
Beside him, Luo Chuqing still had his eyes closed.
"What wish did you make?"
"I can only tell you that it's related to you." I blushed again, feeling embarrassed.
Finally, when it was time to set off fireworks, there were too many people. Luo Chuqing held my hand tightly.
"Don't get lost."
There's no need for fireworks, I already have them in my heart!
I thought I would be confessed to while watching the fireworks, but even after the fireworks were over and I returned to the brothel, it still didn't happen.
The flame in my heart was extinguished in an instant.
I know usually it's the man who takes the initiative in these matters, but I believe that in love, one should pursue it themselves.
So I grabbed Luo Chuqing and said, "I like you, will you marry me?"
He was slightly stunned.
I don't know how I got back to the room. He didn't just look slightly stunned, he was completely stunned for a whole minute without responding to me. He probably doesn't like me, I think.
Since he doesn't like me, I should keep my distance from him and not continue to entangle with him. So I left the brothel. Since I came to the mortal world, I definitely need to see the scenery of the human world.
Before leaving, I went to eat roasted sweet potatoes and went to a restaurant. The waiter at the restaurant found out that I was leaving, so he took out his own money to prepare a roasted chicken for me to eat on the way, and gave me a bunch of instructions. This person is so long-winded, I quickly brushed him off and ran away.
I dressed very plainly and mixed in with the common people to leave the city.
I happened to encounter an army going out of the city to fight. From a distance, I saw the imposing figure of Luo Chuqing at the front. Well, I guess this can be considered a farewell.
I traveled and enjoyed the mountains and waters for over half a year. Suddenly, I received a letter from Meng Po, saying that Zhao Mangyuan hopes to see if Chen Mingxi's wife is pregnant now. Anyway, I had nothing to do, so I returned to the capital and immediately went to the Chen residence.
Zhao Mangyuan is really infatuated, even at this point, he still wants to pursue a result. But what about my own result? Should I still be persistent?
After arriving at the Chen residence, I saw the woman's swollen belly and replied to Meng Po, "Yes." I congratulated them and then returned to the brothel.
Back at the brothel, I told the madam not to tell anyone about my return. She quickly agreed.
I went to the restaurant again, and once again indulged in a feast. After satisfying my hunger and thirst, I called the waiter to bring out the dessert. He still remembered my old habits and started talking about the gossip in the capital. Such as the marriage alliance between the Li family and the Zhang family, the number of banquets set up for the pregnant daughter-in-law of the Zhou family, and the return of General Luo to the court. Luo! General! Has! Returned!
These words keep coming back to my mind. It's been over half a year, but hearing this person's heartbeat still makes mine speed up. Indeed, meeting an outstanding man is something unforgettable.
But this time, I don't plan to see him again.
I've been lazy and indulgent in the brothel for half a month, and the madam can't stand it anymore. She insists that I must serve clients. Alright, but I want to change my name and conceal my identity.
The madam readily agreed. This time, I wasn't just selling my skills.
On my first night with a client, I met the person I had been longing for day and night.
He just sat quietly drinking, in fact, my new name change didn't attract much attention, nor did it make a big splash. But when he came, I felt both happy and angry. Does he really like brothels so much?
Does he enter the room like this with every woman in the brothel?
He didn't speak, and I remained silent, just watching him through the veil. He was still so handsome.
He suddenly turned to look at me and suddenly spoke, " Cuihua."
! How did you know it was me?
I lifted the veil,
"How did you know it was me?"
He held me tightly, saying he missed me and couldn't be without me.
This is the first time I've cried in my life. I suddenly feel very wronged, but also very happy.
"Will you marry me?"
"I've been thinking, Cuihua, I want to marry you."
With these words, I felt at ease entrusting myself to him.
We became inseparable, sticking together every day, and I was especially happy with him.
I moved into his house,
taking care of his daily life,
selecting clothes, fabrics, patterns, and styles for him.
Almost his entire wardrobe was chosen by me.
We will always be together, right?
But I never heard him mention marrying me again.
Actually, I don't really want him to marry me. It's fine just like this.
As long as I can be with him, it's all good.
One day, he went out for business and didn't come back until very late.
He sent someone back to say that he would be staying at a friend's house tonight and not coming back.
Half an hour later, he sent someone again to say that he had drunk too much and wanted me to come and take him home.
So I followed that person and walked into an alley, where I was knocked unconscious and taken away.
When I woke up, I was in a woodshed.
In front of me was a woman I had never seen before. She was arrogant and pulled my hair, saying, "You are the prostitute who clings to Brother Luo to go home, aren't you? You are just a lowly prostitute. Do you think Brother Luo really likes you? He's just playing with you. The person he will ultimately marry is me. Only I can marry him. Do you understand? If you do, then get out of the capital city quickly."
My hair was pulled so painfully that I finally realized something I had never thought of before. The difference between him and me is like the difference between clouds and mud. I used to be a nameless ghost, and when I came to the human world, I was just a so-called orphan, a prostitute, the lowest of the low. How could I deserve him? His gaze on my face for even a moment was something I thanked the heavens for, let alone being with him for so long.
"I should be content."
"How do you want me to be?"
"I want to scratch your face and make it so you can never seduce Brother Luo again."
Actually, I also want to see if without this face they say is Peerless, will Luo Chuqing still treat me so well.
I tilted my head back and let her draw a few lines on my face. In fact, she didn't use much force, only leaving behind faint scars.
After she scratched my face, she ordered the servants to throw me out. When they threw me out, my lower abdomen hit the door sill and blood gushed out instantly. It hurts so much, Luo Chuqing, please save me.
I opened my eyes and found myself still in the room of the brothel. Could it be that everything was just a dream? The maid saw me wake up and cried as she told me that my child was gone, the child was only two months old.
I asked about Luo Chuqing. The maid said he will come later.
I didn't expect that the first thing he did when he came was to slap me.
"Adulteress! You were secretly having an affair with someone else while being with me!"
I am full of doubts.
"You, are you really my child? That day at the brothel, meeting you was just a coincidence. Who knows how many clients you had before me? You wanted me to marry you, did you already know you were pregnant and wanted to find a wealthy man to take over?"
My ears were buzzing, I couldn't keep up with his thoughts.
"You even dared to provoke Miss Li from the Li family? She is my fiancée, how dare you provoke her? Let me tell you, I will never marry you in my life. Look at your name, how common it is. If my wife's name is written as Cuihua in our family genealogy, it would be a joke, especially since you are a promiscuous woman!"
Okay, so this is how he really thinks of me. In an instant, I understood everything.
Why did he ask about my family the first time we went to the restaurant?
After knowing that I am an orphan, he understood that I am alone in this world and can be played with at will.
He threw three hundred taels just to humiliate me with the name " Cuihua."
So I'm just a fool. That maid is his person. How could he not know that it was my first night that night?
He just doesn't want anyone to know that I'm carrying his child.
He feels ashamed.
Before returning to the underworld, I bid farewell to the few friends I have in the mortal world.
I am still sitting in the original private room of the restaurant, still the same waiter.
This time, it was the waiter who spoke first.
"On the first day the young lady came to the restaurant, Master Luo sat in the private room on the third floor, along with some other young masters from prominent families. When they saw your Peerless appearance, they all bet to win you over, with Master Luo placing the most generous bet."
I have nothing to say. Perhaps all of this is destined.
But I forgot, ghosts have no fate.
I am sitting in the private room on the third floor, in Luo Chuqing's seat, which gives me a clear view of everything. How commanding and dominant it is to have the high ground.
Is it possible that just because a woman looks good, she has to become a plaything for you privileged people? Even Zhao Mangyuan is also a privileged daughter. If she hadn't encountered scum, she would not have died so tragically.
"The unfaithful will surely descend into the 18 layers of hell," the servant said angrily.
Go to hell? You have to go through The Underworld to get to hell.
Sure enough, in the forty years that I helped Yama with his official duties in The Underworld, Luo Chuqing came.
I looked at his book of life and death, he wasn't supposed to die so early.
I went to the Naihe Bridge and managed to see him before he drank the Meng Po soup. I appeared to him in my "pre-death" appearance, but he didn't even look at me. Perhaps to him, I was just a passing fancy from his youth.
I actually still harbor illusions, thinking that he will remember me, maybe even feel guilty and remorseful. Or perhaps he will explain to me when he sees me, saying that it was just a misunderstanding back then, that he did love me, but had to act out that play for the sake of a political marriage.
But he didn't do any of that. He's just rotten, there was no misunderstanding, and no reason at all.
Actually, I understand that even if he really loved me, he still came to provoke me while he was engaged, and in such a insulting way. I am cheap enough to think a little trick is true love.
But being disappointed is not my fault. In these years at The Underworld, I have seen too many women hurt by men.
The doubts I had when I met Zhao Mangyuan in the past have now been resolved.
If the one you love has already abandoned you, does the love you gave still have meaning?
Meaningful, love is always meaningful, it's just that the person doesn't deserve such pure love, it's his lack of appreciation that makes people feel that love is meaningless. The so-called pain of love is not caused by love itself. If you meet someone who knows how to cherish and love each other, then love is the most meaningful thing in the world.
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