After returning home, Li Xiaolu's first task was to open WeChat. She thought that maybe she could receive a message from Jijun. She hoped that perhaps she could chat with him. However, she did not receive any messages from him. She felt a bit disappointed.
She opened their chat window and looked at their previous conversation, feeling an indescribable emotion in her heart. She thought that she should talk to him more. She believed she should engage him in conversation more often. But she didn't know what to say. She realized that she knew too little about him.
She only knew that he was an international student at New York University, that she had seen him in the Stern study room, that he was in America, that he was in New York, and that they attended the same school. She thought about how she didn’t know his major, his year, his phone number, his address, his birthday, his zodiac sign, his hobbies, his habits, his thoughts, his feelings, his mood, or his worries.
She realized she didn’t know anything about him. She felt that her understanding of him was almost zero. This feeling made her uneasy. It made her feel scared. She didn’t like this feeling. She thought she should meet him sooner.
Li Xiaolu opened Instagram, wanting to find Jijun's social media account. First, she found the people she followed and then used the six degrees of separation theory to locate the people he followed. She thought that she had finally found him.
She thought that she could finally meet him.
She thought that she could finally chat with him.
She thought that she could finally talk to him more.
She thought that she could finally become more familiar with him.
She thought that she could finally get closer to him.
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Li Xiaolu looked at Jijun's account, feeling something indescribable in her heart.
She thought that his account profile picture was actually of the cat he raised.
She thought that the cat was named Beibei.
She thought that she really liked that cat.
She thought that she also wanted a cat like that.
She thought that she really wanted to pet that cat.
She thought that she really wanted to hug that cat.
She thought that she really wanted to play with that cat.
She thought that she really wanted to sleep with that cat.
She thought that she really wanted to eat with that cat.
She thought that she really wanted to do many things with that cat.
She thought that she really liked that cat.
She thought that she really liked that cat.
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Li Xiaolu looked at Jijun's account, feeling something indescribable in her heart.
She thought that his account was not set to private.
She thought that he had not blocked her on his account.
She thought that his account hadn't blocked her.
She thought that his account hadn't deleted her.
She thought that his account hadn't blacklisted her.
She thought that his account hadn't reported her.
She thought that his account hadn't complained about her.
The next morning, Li Xiaolu went to school.
She thought that she might encounter Jijun at school.
She thought that she might meet him at school.
She thought that she might chat with him at school.
She thought that she might say a few more words to him at school.
She thought that she might become more familiar with him at school.
She thought that she might get closer to him at school.
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Li Xiaolu went to school with these thoughts, walked into the classroom with these thoughts, and started class with these thoughts.
However, she never saw Jijun.
Until the class ended, until she walked out of the classroom, until she left the school, until she returned home, she never saw Jijun.
She thought that she might not see Jijun anymore.
She thought that she might not chat with him anymore.
She thought that she might not meet him anymore.
She thought that she might not become more familiar with him anymore.
She thought that she might not get closer to him anymore.
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