In my senior year, I discovered that I was pregnant. For a moment, it felt like the sky was falling. My husband, however, was very responsible. He rented an apartment for me and asked me to move out. When I went to the hospital for a check-up, the doctor told me I had Endometriosis. I was terrified and trembling all over. My husband knelt before me and said, "Zixuan, I'm sorry. It's all my fault."
"I support whatever decision you make," he continued. "I will marry you." I touched my belly and asked shakily, "Could it be a misdiagnosis?" He held my hand tightly and reassured me, "No, we have already been to three hospitals for checks."
Looking out at the bare branches outside, I said, "I want to have this child." My husband's eyes turned slightly red as he embraced me tightly. "Zixuan, thank you."
In truth, it wasn't entirely for him. I came from a poor family; I had no choice. Having this child was my responsibility. But I didn't have the courage to raise this child alone. Fortunately, my husband had expressed his commitment to me. He said that no matter what happened, he would marry me. I believed him.
I felt truly miserable. It was as if there was a thorn in my heart.
But I didn't dare to tell my husband.
I was afraid it would trouble him.
"Zixuan, you really are foolish.
Do you think you married for love?
Back then, when my husband married me, it was less about loving me and more about giving the child a name.
I gave birth to a girl.
After my daughter was born, my mother only took care of her for two months before my mother-in-law criticized her and drove her away.
After my mother left, all the responsibilities of taking care of my daughter fell on me.
My husband is busy with work and managing his own company.
Every day, I am alone with the child.
Breastfeeding, making baby food, changing diapers, putting the baby to sleep.
I have no idea how to do any of this.
My life has always been about studying.
From elementary school to middle school, I was the top student in my grade.
From middle school to high school, I was among the top ten in my grade.
From high school to university, I was an outstanding student.
I learned piano, painting, advanced mathematics, and English.
I developed many talents.
But no one ever taught me how to be a mother.
I was on the verge of breaking down.
But I couldn't break down.
Because the child needs me.
Because I am a mother."
I think it might be because I am useless. That's why my mother-in-law is unhappy with me. If I could do better, would that satisfy her? I lowered myself to the ground, but my mother-in-law was still not satisfied. Later, I realized that it wasn't that I wasn't good enough; rather, she looked down on me from the bottom of her heart. She believed that I seduced her son for money, got pregnant before marriage, and blackmailed him into marrying me.
This was something my mother-in-law taught my stepson. He repeated it to me in his childish voice: "You only seduced my dad for money, deliberately got pregnant, and want to marry him. You are a shameless woman!"
These were the words of a ten-year-old child. I trembled with anger, tears turning into sleepless nights in my heart. I couldn't refute it because those words were taught by my mother-in-law, and the one saying them was just a child. At that moment, I felt like my entire world had collapsed.
Once, I was an outstanding university student with a bright future ahead of me. But now, I am merely Li Haoran's wife, Li Ran's stepmother, and Yun Yun's mother. My life has been shattered into pieces. Marriage is a slaughter of the weak by the strong.
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