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The next day, Jian Yunong specifically waited until after breakfast to find Huo Jincheng.
"I'm sorry, Mrs. Huo, Mr. Huo is still resting. He was busy until early morning yesterday," Secretary Ye blocked her way.
Jian Yunong gasped, "So late."
Ye Mei smiled, "Mr. Huo's schedule has always been tight. There have been many matters to attend to lately, and he piled a lot of things together just to come see you."
Jian Yunong furrowed her brows, her gaze landing on Ye Mei's face, feeling that something was off, but she couldn't pinpoint it at the moment.
Ye Mei smiled and spoke, "Would you like to rest a bit more? The doctor has arranged for you at one o'clock this afternoon."
There was only half an hour left until one o'clock.
Jian Yunong initially didn't want Huo Jincheng to accompany her to see the doctor.
Huo Jincheng's driver took Jian Yunong to the doctor's clinic as arranged by the secretary.
Regarding mental health issues, they are far less stigmatized abroad than in her home country. Jian Yunong knew how others would perceive her; judging by her mother-in-law's reaction, which was that of seeing her as crazy, or like the malicious relatives from the Jian Family who thought Jian Yunong was just being dramatic and spoiled, believing she just needed to endure more hardship.
However, abroad, most people would see a psychologist as casually as they would visit a doctor for a minor cold.
The doctor Huo Jincheng had invited this time was somewhat similar yet different from previous doctors.
The psychologist was gentle and patient; even though Jian Yunong habitually guarded herself, she still treated her with smiles, patience, and kindness.
After the consultation ended, the psychologist did not say much about the issue of intimacy barriers between genders.
Jian Yunong felt that the doctor might not have told the whole truth because of Huo Jincheng or out of concern for her feelings.
After careful consideration, the psychologist offered her a suggestion, "I believe your current state is not suitable for being alone abroad."
Jian Yunong's gaze towards the doctor became defensive again. "Is it because my husband asked you to say that? As a doctor, your words make me doubt your professionalism. I'm not a fool."
Jian Yunong stood up, unwilling to listen any longer; those two hours felt like a waste of time.
Her emotions clearly turned volatile, and she even cursed in front of the psychologist, "Bastard, Huo Jincheng, you bastard! You don't take my illness seriously at all! Bastard!"
The doctor quietly waited for Jian Yunong to vent before softly speaking, "You have depression."
Jian Yunong suddenly fell silent, and after a moment of shock, she laughed, "Impossible."
She firmly denied it.
"I'm very happy. I just sometimes struggle with others' intimacy. But my relationship with my husband has been changing recently; I'm becoming less resistant to intimacy. I'm living actively and trying to shake off my past shadows; I can integrate into social life normally. What problem do I have? I can't possibly have depression."
The doctor quietly observed Jian Yunong. The more she denied it, the more it revealed her avoidance; her inner self was not as resolute as she claimed.
"Depression is an issue that is easily overlooked and misunderstood by those around you. In the world of depression, one is always alone with oneself, regardless of how cheerful they may appear on the surface. Their world is filled with eternal loneliness, and there is always a barrier between their inner world and reality. If this issue continues to be neglected or if one is in a harsh environment, it can worsen over time, potentially leading to obsessive-compulsive disorder, autism, anxiety disorders, borderline personality disorder, and other issues that can drive a person deeper into despair. Severe cases may even lead to schizophrenia or suicide. They often engage in extreme self-protection and possess a heart as sensitive and fragile as glass, despite their efforts to conceal it. They live in despair; even though they try hard to avoid troubling others, they often find themselves in situations that are troublesome and painful."
The doctor's gaze seemed to penetrate into her inner self. "You may think you are living more positively than before. Perhaps you are trying hard to heal yourself. But dear, what you can do is only temporarily cover it up and wait for time to heal slowly. This process requires strong self-control and is very slow; that's why your husband sought my help for you. Being alone may also stem from your feeling that your husband cannot provide you with enough understanding. You shouldn't be so harsh on him; doing so is unfair to yourself as well. Mr. Huo has not made any demands on me. I am simply offering you advice from my heart as a healer. Of course, you can choose not to listen to me. But there is no need for you to deny your husband completely."
The doctor's tone softened, "Dear, don't push everyone away. In fact, you long for all this warmth."
Jian Yunong lowered her head in silence.
"You can take your time to think about it. See you tomorrow."
...
Jian Yunong refused the driver's offer and slowly walked back along the riverbank.
She thought a lot during the walk.
Perhaps it was related to the time she spent confined mentally.
Unable to rest properly day and night, treated by those doctors in strange ways, living next to patients who always talked to themselves.
She had indeed been pampered and had never endured such grievances.
As she approached the hotel, she saw Huo Jincheng's figure in the distance, smiling as he walked toward her.
The previously gloomy Jian Yunong also broke into a smile. As soon as they got close, Huo Jincheng pulled her into his arms.
When they were abroad, he was always unrestrained, hugging and kissing whenever he wanted, completely indifferent to whether there were people around or if it was a public place.
Jian Yunong felt her cheeks flush from his kisses; he carried a faint fragrance from washing up.
Jian Yunong's soft voice asked him, "Why don't you rest a bit longer?"
Huo Jincheng frowned, "Didn't we agree that you would let me accompany you to see the doctor? Why did you sneak off alone?"
Jian Yunong opened her mouth, initially wanting to say that your secretary told me not to disturb you, but upon reflection, it seemed that Ye Mei hadn't actually said that. However, her implication was indeed that way.
But if she wanted to argue, it seemed Ye Mei wouldn't have any issues with that.
Jian Yunong pouted, "But I feel sorry for you not sleeping well last night. I wanted you to rest a little more."
She lowered her voice, "Actually, seeing the doctor is really boring. I almost fell asleep."
Huo Jincheng kissed the tip of her nose, "Are you hungry? I'll take you out for something delicious today."
In the past, Jian Yunong would definitely say yes.
But thinking about how busy he was, Jian Yunong decided against it. "I want to eat what you make. Can you make me some shaved noodles?"
This dish is simple and doesn't take as much time as making soup.
Huo Jincheng squinted slightly, "Missing home-cooked food? Then come back home with me."
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