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If the customer is the one who hurt Ah Yin, then Ah Lin might be the one who soothes Ah Yin's wounds. Sometimes when thinking about the customer, Ah Yin feels a hint of resentment. Ah Yin doesn't understand why, logically speaking, the customer and Ah Yin have no close relationship. Over the past ten years, the customer has provided some help to Ah Yin, and of course, Ah Yin has also given the customer some discounts in business. Perhaps what moved Ah Yin was the fact that the customer brought up the idea of investing in stocks with Ah Yin. At that time, the customer was indeed well-intentioned, there is no doubt about that. So what made Ah Yin feel hurt? Firstly, the customer initiated this matter, but never considered Ah Yin's feelings. Secondly, the customer mentioned coming to see Ah Yin, making plans with Ah Yin, and then Ah Yin foolishly waited, like a concubine or maid waiting for favor in ancient times. Ah Yin really wished to return to the era of polygamy, even if it meant being the customer's concubine or maid, Ah Yin would have been willing. But the customer gave Ah Yin hope, and then never came to see Ah Yin. Ah Yin felt as if they had offered their heart to the customer, only for the customer to disregard it and trample on it. Thirdly, when Ah Yin called the customer, the customer asked about their stocks, saying they had intended to call but didn't have the number. Then, the last time the customer called Ah Yin, they said not to contact them anymore. Where did this call come from? This is the most puzzling thing for Ah Yin. This incident shows that in the customer's mind, Ah Yin is not important at all, just someone they had a slight fondness for at the time. If it weren't for this incident with the customer, perhaps Ah Yin would still be watching the sunrise and sunset, busy running around for the customer every day, and living a plain life with their spouse, and things might not have evolved into the current situation with Ah Lin.
Ah Lin's story might be a bit extensive, so let's just consider it as a novel. Here's a friendly reminder: if some readers can't accept it, they can hold off and wait until all the stories are finished before expressing their opinions.
After Ah Yin took on the role of Head of the organization, Ah Lin came to see Ah Yin and brought some local specialties as a gift. Ah Yin treated Ah Lin to a meal. Later, Ah Lin asked Ah Yin to treat him to crayfish and invited some colleagues from their organization. That day, Ah Yin wore a knee-length skirt, a lake-blue lace fabric with lace trim around the neckline, a strong Taobao style. When Ah Lin saw Ah Yin, he said, "You look pretty today." Ah Yin blushed at the compliment. When Ah Lin's colleagues arrived, Ah Yin noticed two beautiful women, one resembling Jia Jingwen and the other resembling Gao Yuanyuan, both elegant. Here's a note: in state-owned enterprises, the quality of beauties at the headquarters is higher than that of branch offices, and the quality of beauties at branch offices is higher than that of grassroots organizations. Therefore, beauty is the most important resource for girls. Compared to them, Ah Yin felt like a country bumpkin, simple and unsophisticated. Ah Yin thought, it seems that the rumors from a few years ago were indeed true; Ah Lin is indeed a master at charming women. After the meal, Ah Yin went back. This gathering made Ah Yin realize that there are indeed different social classes among people. Ah Yin belongs to the hardworking lower class, while Ah Lin belongs to a slightly higher class than the working class. Let's briefly describe Ah Lin's situation. Ah Lin is not tall, probably around 165cm, a short guy. In terms of appearance and physique, he's not Ah Yin's type. Due to Ah Yin's petite figure, the ideal height for a partner is a non-negotiable requirement, no less than 175cm. This might be a common problem for young women. At that time, Ah Lin drove an Audi, which has now been replaced by a Mercedes. In the provincial capital, he has a one-bedroom apartment, and now he has also acquired a new 180-square-meter house. This new house might be the family's future settlement in the provincial capital. Ah Lin's father is a middle-level employee in the same system, and his mother is a civil servant. It can be said that they belong to the well-off working class.
At this time, Ah Lin and Ah Yin's chat content was very innocent, with a little ambiguity but it was just colleagues chatting. There was almost nothing to say until July 2015. At that time, Ah Yin had a big project on her hands that needed headquarters' support. Ah Yin asked Ah Lin for help, and Ah Lin said he knew the person in charge of the project. They agreed to go see the project leader together. That day, Ah Yin waited near Ah Lin's the company, and Ah Lin asked her to buy some pastries. Their conversation that night felt like a boyfriend instructing his girlfriend on what to do, such as what flavor to buy and how much, which made Ah Yin feel a little confused, as if she and Ah Lin were really in a romantic relationship. When they arrived at the client's place, Ah Lin brought some local specialties as a gift. Ah Yin was surprised because this was her client, so the gift should have been prepared by her. Ah Lin said, "I knew you didn't prepare a gift." Ah Yin felt really sweet inside at that moment.
That night, Ah Lin drank a lot, and Ah Yin was responsible for driving him back home. When they arrived at Ah Lin's building, Ah Yin parked the car and said, "I'm going back now." Ah Lin said, "Won't you come up for a while?" At that time, Ah Yin had just been confessed to by a client, so she was feeling confused. She also understood, at her age, what it meant to go up for a while. Ah Yin said, "I'm going home," and then she left. Ah Lin sent a text message: "I drank so much, and you didn't take care of me?" Ah Yin replied, "I'm afraid of causing trouble. We are not from the same world. Even if we went back 8 years, it would still be impossible. Your parents would definitely not agree." Ah Lin replied, "If you don't try, how do you know? Where there's a will, there's a way." Ah Yin didn't reply, but she felt a little ripple in her heart. She really fantasized about what it would be like if she had been in a relationship with Ah Lin 8 years ago. She probably wouldn't have made it to the end. Thinking about this, Ah Yin returned to reality. Even if time were to turn back, it would still be impossible for them because they are not from the same social class.
It seems that from this point on, Ah Lin almost came to chat with Ah Yin every day. When she was at work, Ah Yin would receive greetings from Ah Lin on the office intranet, a mischievous smile or just a smile. If Ah Yin saw it, she wouldn't reply, and if she didn't see it, Ah Lin would ask, "Where are you?" How did Ah Yin feel about these greetings at that time? There was a hint of sweetness, but it seemed like she didn't pay much attention to it because sometimes she didn't reply to Ah Lin's messages in a timely manner, and when Ah Lin didn't reply to Ah Yin's messages, she didn't feel anything. What were their conversations like at that time? It seems like Ah Lin would ask Ah Yin what she was doing, and Ah Yin would reply with work or meeting clients. There didn't seem to be any explicit conversations, but the level of ambiguity seemed to be greater than before because Ah Lin would sometimes send WeChat messages to Ah Yin on weekends, asking what she was doing. Ah Yin would reply that she was taking care of her child, and Ah Lin would respond with "So obedient." One time, Ah Lin called Ah Yin on the weekend and said that some people had come to his hometown and they were gathering together. At that time, Ah Yin happened to be in the kitchen, and her mother-in-law happened to be nearby. Ah Yin's first reaction was embarrassment, feeling like her mother-in-law was eavesdropping, so she quickly said she had to take the child and hung up. At that time, what did Ah Yin feel about Ah Lin? It should have been just a fondness, right? What did Ah Lin feel about Ah Yin? Was it affection or just flirting? In fact, until now, Ah Yin still doesn't know how Ah Lin feels about her.
By the time Ah Yin felt hurt by the client and was deeply trapped and unable to extricate herself.
Ah Lin: Happy birthday
Ah Yin: Suddenly feel scared, scared of the feeling of loss.
Ah Yin: Don't be so good to me
Ah Lin: Daydreaming expression
Ah Yin: Don't flirt with me anymore.
Ah Lin: What's wrong with you?
Ah Yin: I'm in a bad mood.
Ah Lin: You look like you're lost in thought.
Ah Yin: I just broke up with my partner.
Ah Lin: Haha, with your level, you still have a partner?
Ah Yin: You're underestimating me.
Later, Ah Yin and Ah Lin had dinner together. Ah Lin carefully analyzed the client's situation for Ah Yin and said, "Actually, it's because you lack the care and love in your emotional experience, so the impact is so great. It's like this cake being brought to your table. You just thought it was the cake you wanted to eat, and you were about to pick up your chopsticks, but then the waiter says, 'Sorry, this isn't your cake.'" ( Ah Lin probably really likes cake, using it as a metaphor. Does it mean that men who like desserts are more attentive?)
When it comes to this, I have to talk about my best friend's story. Ah Yin has very few close friends, so when she encountered such a situation, she had almost no one to confide in, or didn't know who to turn to. At that time, Ah Lin happened to be pursuing Ah Yin, so Ah Yin treated Ah Lin as her male best friend. At that time, Ah Yin naively thought that she and Ah Lin could be close confidants.
After that night, it seemed that Ah Lin pursued Ah Yin even more vigorously, almost from morning to night, and the topics became more and more daring. At first, Ah Yin was not very comfortable, but later she even started to joke around. Sometimes the two of them could flirt from morning until the end of the workday. At that time, their state was probably just as the saying goes, at 80 degrees of affection, not too vulgar but still flirtatious. After chatting, Ah Yin sometimes felt a refreshing sense of ambiguity, which was indeed very pleasant. It was a diversion from her busy work, and when she got home, it was as if everything was left behind. It can be said that at that time, Ah Lin had never entered Ah Yin's dreams.
When the time came, the client said they should no longer be in contact, Ah Yin tasted the feeling of heartbreak. The feeling of loss seemed like a gust of wind, a knife, or a pair of hands forcibly uprooting a deeply rooted tree in her heart. The bloody pain made Ah Yin want to grab onto another tree or a piece of driftwood, as if only that could prevent her from suffocating. Ah Yin sought out Ah Lin again.
Ah Yin: Are you there?
Ah Lin: Yes, what's up?
Ah Yin: Keep me company and chat with me.
Ah Lin: Sure, go ahead. I'm your sounding board.
Ah Yin: A client called me and said not to contact them anymore, without even giving me a chance to respond.
Ah Lin: If you don't want to stay in touch, then don't. What's the big deal?
Ah Yin: Feeling sad.
Ah Lin: Don't be so weak.
Ah Yin: Will you have dinner with me tonight?
Ah Lin: I'm with my classmates.
Ah Yin: Okay...
Ah Yin was walking aimlessly, thinking about the years of hard work and the hard-earned connections that have now vanished. Losing contact with one client means losing contact with a dozen others. Ah Yin feels a splitting headache. Then, a call from Ah Lin.
Ah Lin: Where are you?
Ah Yin: the company here.
Ah Lin: I'm by your the company, taking you for a ride.
Ah Lin's Mercedes-Benz flashes its double-jump car lights as he opens the door and takes a seat.
Then, Ah Yin poured out all the suffering she had endured since childhood, her parents' discord, and the discord in her marriage, and so on, for over two hours, finally feeling relieved.
Ah Lin: Finished pouring it all out?
Ah Yin: Yes, thank you.
Ah Lin: How do you plan to thank me?
Ah Yin: How do you want me to thank you?
Let's all fill in the blanks for this ambiguous situation.
Ah Lin leaned in with his hot lips, and Ah Yin hesitated for a moment before responding enthusiastically.
Ah Lin said, "There really are no white lotus flowers in this world."
Ah Yin was taken aback.
Ah Lin: Alright, let's go back. Ah Lin started his car.
Ah Lin: If I were to say that nothing happened, would you fall apart?
Ah Yin suddenly felt thunderstruck, thinking about a few years ago when Ah Lin first hugged her, and the next day greeted her warmly, to which she coolly replied, "I'll pretend nothing happened." Could it be that Ah Lin was retaliating for her coldness from a few years ago? It felt like a bucket of ice water being poured from head to toe.
Ah Lin patted Ah Yin's head and said, "Alright, don't overthink it. Go home and rest early."
In Ah Yin's diary at the time, she wrote: To be honest, I don't regret being intimate with Ah Lin. When he parked the car in a secluded place, I was prepared for the possibility of ambiguity, but that night I really needed comfort, and Ah Lin was the best choice because I have always been grateful to him. However, I must maintain my bottom line. As the saying goes, the pathway to a woman's heart is through her vagina. Once the bottom line is breached, one will sink, especially when Ah Lin said, 'If I act like nothing happened, will you collapse?' This sentence really gave me the chills, just like when a client told me, 'You and I are the same kind of people,' it struck my heart. One made me want to get closer, the other made me want to escape. But I can't let my relationship with Ah Lin become like a client's, so keeping a distance is the best way. Don't be alone with him; he's just playing with girls.
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