Leave. I will not love anyone else; I can only let my feelings wither away. Like a purple-blue iris, quietly opening its slender petals, silently and joyfully aging.
Maintaining a calm heart in this chaotic world is like watching those silver-white sparks rise and fall in the dark.
In the end, who will accompany me to watch the gentle flow of water?
— Excerpt from An Jin's diary.
The seamless blue sky is dazzling and captivating.
Together with Shaoshao, I arrived at Jingyang Palace. Looking at that familiar face, slightly tanned and adorned with a relaxed smile, I realized that the fun things Shaoshao mentioned were the items Thomas brought from various distant lands.
Shaoshao picked up a doll-like object and said to me, "Mom, this looks like the toy you mentioned, but it’s not as finely crafted as those made by Jun Jin, nor is it as beautiful. What do you think?"
I silently nodded.
Thomas, with his deep blue eyes sparkling with laughter, looked at me and said in Sanskrit, "So you are one of the Emperor's women. However, you seem quite special; you understand even more than I do. For instance, you can speak our language. Who exactly are you?"
I smiled lightly and did not respond. I had lost count of how many times I had been asked "Who are you?" In the end, what remained was An Jin, a woman named An Jin. It was not surprising that I had learned many languages in modern times; if he were not from India, perhaps I would not have either. And English is something every modern person understands; there’s nothing remarkable about it.
Shaoshao could not comprehend our conversation and looked at us both with a puzzled expression.
Noticing the faint sadness on my face, Thomas speculated, "Are you unhappy because you're trapped here?"
Seeing his curious expression, I replied coolly, "Put away your curiosity; stories are not something everyone can look forward to."
For some reason, I suddenly recalled a line by Eileen Chang: she is like a bird embroidered on a screen… even in death, she remains on that screen.
Fate is like watching a fire from across the river; you never know what will happen next. Looking at Shaoshao's clean smile—so different from how he appears before others—my heart warms every time I see him smile. I suddenly realized that I could also love.
I burst into a sudden understanding and laughed brightly.
With the Jade Moon in hand, the fragrance of flowers fills my attire.
Hadn't the Zen Philosophy, which I understood long ago, already told me how to live?
To be wild, a woman who lives freely. To be a Wildflower Unconcerned with Fame. Zen is the most serene lotus flower in one's life.
The carriage slowly rolled out of the Palace Gates, passing through layers of open palace doors—Red Walls, Vermilion Eaves, and Azure Railings, the Glazed Dragon Platform, and the Phoenix Pavilion reaching into the sky.
The smoke curled lightly, dew glimmered faintly; where are the peach blossoms?
It is Spring Beauty, brewing a Flowering Day. Indeed, it is a good day for a journey.
To celebrate this occasion, today I wore for the first time a Woven Gold Deep Red Brocade, different from my usual white cloud brocade. The Flowing Cloud Robe swayed gently, adorned with the Yingluo Mandala and a White Jade Hairpin. The sound of jade pendants chimed softly as I applied light makeup. A hint of a smile lingered on my lips, like spring water rippling with autumn waves, my eyes sparkling like crystal jade filled with a gentle smile.
Today marks the annual National Merchants Conference. The emperor has made an exception to attend this grand event to share joy with the people. Every year, this outdoor National Merchant Conference held in the capital is organized by Jun Jin, who holds the position of Merchant Chairman. The scale of this conference is as grand as that of a national celebration, where subjects from all over come together in merriment, creating a level of prosperity and excitement that others dare not estimate.
It is also something other nations find hard to surpass. Just because Jun Jin resides in Jin State and not in their countries, those neighboring nations can only envy but remain helpless.
Moreover, the appearance of the Jin Nation Young Master—a woman—has stirred up waves across the realm like never before; it is a shock this era has never witnessed.
The woman named Jin has created a legend for this age.
Honestly, I do not understand why he chose to do this—why he suddenly announced his participation in this year's National Merchant Conference at court. And not incognito but as the emperor, as the ruler of a nation.
As the chairman, I must attend.
I look at this man who loves me deeply; I do not understand if his actions imply an acknowledgment of Jun Jin's status in the world. No one knows yet that Jun Jin is actually the predecessor of Jin Kingdom. My four kings are the four great chancellors, except for Azure Thorn who just left me.
However, since he had decided to do this, I would present him with a gift in front of the world.
A gift that belonged to me, fulfilling the promise made years ago.
Upon arriving at the venue, it was already packed with people.
As we descended from the carriage alongside the Emperor, I noticed Little Seven, Song Kong, and Lian waiting respectfully to the side, nodding at me. Seeing their expressions, I knew they were fully prepared. I greeted them with a gaze.
Walking up to the high platform under his escort, countless officials and several esteemed consorts followed behind us.
By walking together in front of everyone, he silently acknowledged my status.
He was telling the world that I was irreplaceable; I understood.
Reaching the main seat, Sima Rui took his place at the position set for him. Sitting beside him was the Chairman of this grand assembly.
I glanced to his right; that adjacent seat was reserved for his Queen or favored consort. To his right was a long bench designated for court officials. The empty seat on his left was meant for distinguished merchants who had traveled from afar to attend the National Merchants Conference.
When the Emperor arrived, all stood up in unison, quietly waiting for their Chairman to appear and collectively pay their respects to him.
I paused slightly in place before suddenly breaking into a stunning smile. In the astonished gazes of all the consorts and court officials, I walked confidently and gracefully in my alluring red attire, radiant like a sunset, seductive beyond compare, and approached the empty seat on the left, sitting down with an air of natural authority.
Like a clear stream flowing over stones, like a fairy gracefully unfurling her sleeves in the wind, like an elegant scholar strolling leisurely through a garden, I remained calm as a mountain and serene as clear water before all.
Between Heaven and Earth, the gentle breeze carried the bright moonlight while clear waters flowed softly away.
Like plum blossoms standing proudly against frost and snow, exuding their delicate fragrance, I sat there looking at everyone with a light smile that was breathtakingly beautiful.
The consorts and ministers present, completely unaware of what was happening, stared in astonishment.
Only Consort Huan smiled lightly, realizing that this was the Little Jin he had always envisioned.
In the corner, Sima Shao quietly gazed at the proud woman on the stage, his expression slightly moved, a hint of depth flashing in his eyes.
Upon seeing me, all the wealthy merchants in the world, along with everyone from Jun Jin, respectfully stood up, their expressions serious and willingly bowing as they greeted, "Chairman." Their respect for me came from the depths of their hearts, rather than mere surface worship.
I calmly scanned the crowd, nodded quietly, and waved my hand. Everyone then quietly returned to their seats.
Once seated, I stood up to represent everyone present and bowed to the Emperor, saying, "My Emperor, long live you!" After I spoke, everyone in the realm knelt down in unison, shouting, "My Emperor, long live you!"
The sound instantly resonated through the skies and lingered for a long time.
Sima Rui smiled lightly and said in a deep voice, "You may rise."
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Dear readers, I apologize for the delay. Monday is Yueyue's busiest day with classes all day long and even in the evening. I’m sorry for the late update. It won’t be this late in the future!
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